Guest Writer To the one behind my smiles,
For someone like me, I don’t usually pour all my faith into love. For love was the greatest leap with no pause or retakes. You fall and that was it. It’s messy. It’s demanding. It’s quite hard to meet halfway. It’s so wide-ranging that it’s not for the weak and unprepared. For quite a long time, I used to believe that it would be that way. People come and people go. Memories fade, and the best ones tend to fade a little too. That was it. I thought love wasn’t for me because I couldn’t understand how it worked.
But everything changed the day you came. Everything changed the day you made me realize that someone could just exist in front of me, and all of a sudden, I knew what I wanted about love.
You were the soft sound of kindness that comes naturally. Your words, your principles, and your perspectives all mattered to me. Your mind does magic. They are full of sense, and day after day, I can’t help but get too attached to you. Day after day, I confirm to myself that I am certainly falling for you.
Somehow, I had come to see that love is indeed hard to understand when you have never met the right one who will put colors and meanings into it. For me, it only takes your smile, your voice, or the way your laugh sounds to make me feel at ease with life. Suddenly, I didn’t fear falling. It was like landing softly, and nothing hurt. Life started to appear meaningful, for I had something and someone special to look forward to.
A woman loving a woman is not something everyone could understand, but this love carries such significant weight to me that I didn’t care what others would say. I just want the gentleness of this. I just love the idea of tomorrow as I picture you in it. It makes me feel calm just by thinking about the probabilities. and I know that this love will be worth the wait. I will stay wherever you want me to stay, for I know you also have the freedom to slow things down. I am here to respect the gaps you might put in between and remind you that you don’t have to worry about the thought of someone waiting for you. You’re allowed to enjoy your pursuit and find meaning in your own version of love.
I won’t tap the burdens on your shoulders just because you might think I set my expectations way too high. Love is selflessness, and I know the lines I am not allowed to cross. I am here just loving you the way you are, and I have put boundaries on my anticipations. Truly, just because I feel something special for you doesn’t mean you’re obliged to feel something for me too. I want you to take things honestly with yourself, for I am not going anywhere unless you want me to.
You don’t have to worry about me. I know how to handle whatever might come. Just for now, while you’re trying to make up your mind, let me stay at this distance. Just allow me to enjoy admiring you.
Your admirer,
Glors
